happiness is everything

I was blessed with the beautiful gift of a smile today. The smile of a beautiful baby boy. My nephew, James. His smile warms my heart and lifts my spirits. And yet, it cannot feel the void i feel. the want to wrap my own arms around a child to call my own. I know patience is vital and that God has his plan. But is it so wrong to hope that His plan will coincide with that of my own? Transcendent beings have the power and the will to bless those with what they desire. and currently, my desire is so great that it causes pain. My life will not complete until i know motherhood. My want is for happiness, for my child.