hmm...

life is great and yet, i'm still stumped as to why i am always in some cloudy mist of downess. I guess everything is just piling up, Don't get me wrong, i'm happy and i'm fine just have this little nigling in the back of my mind. Just wishing that i could figure it out that's all. i want so much to figure this out and to stop being mopey, it's just not fun. I have heories and none of them seem to fit. oh well, i guess i will just continue to ponder on.

happiness is everything

I was blessed with the beautiful gift of a smile today. The smile of a beautiful baby boy. My nephew, James. His smile warms my heart and lifts my spirits. And yet, it cannot feel the void i feel. the want to wrap my own arms around a child to call my own. I know patience is vital and that God has his plan. But is it so wrong to hope that His plan will coincide with that of my own? Transcendent beings have the power and the will to bless those with what they desire. and currently, my desire is so great that it causes pain. My life will not complete until i know motherhood. My want is for happiness, for my child.

Advice to a friend

Life is too short to wait for approval
life is too short to worry what people think
life is too short to let your dreams lie
life is everything that you want to make it
life is a dream not meant to be a nightmare
life is adventure just take you first step
life is a leap of faith fall into someone's arms
life is a present so take it with a smile
life is everything so don't take it for granted
life is special so live it to it's fullest